Wednesday, February 1, 2012

My Battle to Become a Mom ~ A book.... maybe?

OK - for many many years, I have wanted to write a  book.  When we lived on a boat, I talked about writing abook about the adventures of living aboard a boat from a woman's perspective.  I never wrote it.  When I managed an apartment complex for the mentally ill, I wanted to write a book about those adventures.  I never wrote it.  When I was in Iraq, I had planned on writing a book on my adventures as soon as I returned home.  I never wrote it.  I still want to write a book.  What I am seriously considering, is writing a book on our battle with infertility.  A battle that took us to a combat zone and back.  I am honestly not sure if anyone would be interested in this story.  I am not sure I could actually write any thing that would be entertaining enough to captivate an audience.  Chris, of course, is constantly encouraging me, yet my insecurities hold me back.  Tonight, I sat down and wrote an introduction to the story/book.  If I could get you, my friends, to read the introduction and give me an HONEST opinion on if you think it would be interesting or any suggestions you may have- I would appreciate it.  Thanks, and here is the introduction:


Here I sit, a civilian, surrounded by a bunch of Marines on a C130 – packed in like sardines my body is getting so stiff from sitting in one position, unable to stretch my legs or even move my arms.   The weight of the flack jacket I am wearing makes me even more uncomfortable and the sweat is dripping off my head from underneath the Kevlar helmet on my head.  My very first time ever on a military plane and the sound is deafening and my heart is racing as I hear the crew person telling us that the lights are off due to the fact that we are flying over a combat zone –  it is safer this way because it is harder for the enemy to hit a target they cannot see.  I sit and wonder, what in the heck am I doing here?  I can’t believe I am actually flying in to a combat zone.  It feels so surreal and I think back to the reason for this adventure.  Most people assume it is for the money and in a way – it is.  For twelve years, Chris and I have been struggling with infertility.  There is nothing I want more than to be a mom.  The tests, the procedures, the medicines, the surgeries – none of them have resulted in a successful pregnancy.  Each failure, each miscarriage, each negative pregnancy test bring more heart ache.  This opportunity, this adventure – it is the answer to prayers.  This will give us the resources we need to try one last thing – In vitro Fertilization. 

9 comments:

Joanna said...

Yes yes yes! I'm hooked already! Please keep writing - I'd love to read the whole thing!

Eileen Seaman said...

Sandy, you need to write it. I know how the story end but I am interssted to read the detailed adventure, and I hate to read so please do it. I dont think you will regret it,but you will regret not doing it. There are so many people that have your same struggle you could give them the hope they need to keep trying!

Anonymous said...

Sandy....I think this is a great idea. There are a few girls that Sara knows that are having trouble getting pregnant. She is always telling me about their frustrations.
I think this generation now are waiting longer to have children so there is a struggle. A book showing the struggle with such a HAPPY ending is always uplifting.
I am always reading a book...inspirational ones are my favorite!:)

Anonymous said...

Bless you. As someone who knows that pain and the willingness to do just about anything... you could add some much needed comic relief to a painful as hell subject.

Hugs.

Valerie said...

You should! I'd love to hear the story!

Nikki said...

Hey Sis Herwig!

I am a notorious blog stalker...

I just wanted to comment because I thought your intro was very interesting. But I saw some places that I would edit to make it flow better.

Sorry that I am so creepy.

haha

Anonymous said...

Sandy.... I agree with the others.. you NEED to write this book. You have been prepared to write it through many experiences... and you are the perfect person to do it. Sue Moscynski

Joy said...

Sandy, you should write it. There are a lot women out there that are in the same situation and reading your story can provide them hope. That bit was really really good too.

theresa said...

You need to write it for a few reasons. It gives women/couples/families who are and have been struggling for the same thing, hope. It allows people to see what they can do to help others make their dreams come true. It is a 'fairy tale' with a happy ending...everyone loves fairy tales.