My Battle to Become a Mom ~ A book.... maybe?

OK - for many many years, I have wanted to write a  book.  When we lived on a boat, I talked about writing abook about the adventures of living aboard a boat from a woman's perspective.  I never wrote it.  When I managed an apartment complex for the mentally ill, I wanted to write a book about those adventures.  I never wrote it.  When I was in Iraq, I had planned on writing a book on my adventures as soon as I returned home.  I never wrote it.  I still want to write a book.  What I am seriously considering, is writing a book on our battle with infertility.  A battle that took us to a combat zone and back.  I am honestly not sure if anyone would be interested in this story.  I am not sure I could actually write any thing that would be entertaining enough to captivate an audience.  Chris, of course, is constantly encouraging me, yet my insecurities hold me back.  Tonight, I sat down and wrote an introduction to the story/book.  If I could get you, my friends, to read the introduction and give me an HONEST opinion on if you think it would be interesting or any suggestions you may have- I would appreciate it.  Thanks, and here is the introduction:

Here I sit, a civilian, surrounded by a bunch of Marines on a C130 – packed in like sardines my body is getting so stiff from sitting in one position, unable to stretch my legs or even move my arms.   The weight of the flack jacket I am wearing makes me even more uncomfortable and the sweat is dripping off my head from underneath the Kevlar helmet on my head.  My very first time ever on a military plane and the sound is deafening and my heart is racing as I hear the crew person telling us that the lights are off due to the fact that we are flying over a combat zone –  it is safer this way because it is harder for the enemy to hit a target they cannot see.  I sit and wonder, what in the heck am I doing here?  I can’t believe I am actually flying in to a combat zone.  It feels so surreal and I think back to the reason for this adventure.  Most people assume it is for the money and in a way – it is.  For twelve years, Chris and I have been struggling with infertility.  There is nothing I want more than to be a mom.  The tests, the procedures, the medicines, the surgeries – none of them have resulted in a successful pregnancy.  Each failure, each miscarriage, each negative pregnancy test bring more heart ache.  This opportunity, this adventure – it is the answer to prayers.  This will give us the resources we need to try one last thing – In vitro Fertilization. 

A Playmate for the day

JT is so used to me being his playmate that the poor kid does not really know how to act around kids.  I am trying to get him play dates, but so far, they are few and far between.  We were lucky to have a play mate for the entire day on Thursday.  At first JT just kind of stood back and watched her play with his toys.

But once she offered to share a toy with him, he warmed up to her.

He even reciprocated by sharing his Gumby with her.

Not sure why JT does this - but he bangs his head - usually when he is tired or frustrated - or not getting his way.

But this time - when his playmate saw him - she joined him for the head banging as well.  I thought maybe he would realize how silly he looked and stop - but nope - he just joined in and banged his head with her.

 

They finally stopped, and the kissing began.  At first JT was not so sure about it

but then he seemed to enjoy it just a bit too much.

Thank goodness he let her know "enough is enough"

JT finally got so exhausted that he was willing to take a nap, despite the fact that he had someone to play with besides mommy.  He got a kiss night-night from his friend and FINALLY took a much needed nap. 

I think all in all - the play date went well and we are hoping for many more to follow.  

Our Little Photographer

Chris got me an IPOD Touch for Christmas, but it seems it was more like a "family" gift, than a gift for me.  Don't get me wrong, I don't mind Chris draining the battery from playing Angry Birds all night, or JT commandeering it to play the Peek-A-Boo game app.  I also find it extremely entertaining to see the pictures JT takes on the IPod.  Most of them are what you would expect from a one year old 

but some of them are not so bad...who knows, maybe he will follow in his cousin Ethan's footsteps.

Play Date and Birthday Party

JT has been busy the last couple of days.  Friday, he met friends at KidVenture in Huntsville for a playdate.

Talking to Kooper

Kaden sharing with JT

I think Kaden was a little scared of JT - lol

After his play date, we went shopping for a birthday gift for Maddy and some new clothes for JT!

Saturday was Maddy's birthday party!

JT was not so sure about the party hat...

But of course he loved seeing the balloons

Maddy unwrapping gifts

The dress JT got Maddy

Maddy blowing out her candles












After the birthday party we went to the mall to do more clothes shopping for JT.  His closet is once again full with clothes that fit.

It has been a good - but exhausted weekend so far.....

Fun with Daddy

Chris is such a good dad.  Every day when he comes home from work, he spends time playing with JT - no matter how rough his day was or how tired.  I love watching them play.  He is definitely a daddy's boy.  Sometimes their playing is so rough that I freak out - but {usually} no one gets hurt.  And even when someone does get hurt - it has been nothing a sucker can't make better.  I usually don't get to take pictures of their interactions because Chris is usually not appropriately dressed for public photos.  Yesterday, I told him that he needed to start putting appropriate clothes on so that I could take pictures of him and JT.

 I was about to take pictures but JT was in just his diaper (as he is the majority of the time) - I grabbed some clothes out of the closet and asked Chris to get JT dressed.  I did not realize the shorts were two sized too small - but Chris managed to get them on him! Unfortunately - they were so tight that every time JT tried to walk - he fell down.

Not sure what JT's fascination with sunglasses are - he owns three pair and will commandeer anyone and everyones glasses and sunglasses ~~ but he will share!

The little guy is extremely flexible...

Watching the two of them play brings me more joy than I could ever express

And JT is constantly cracking me up with his little expressive face!